i haven't been on here in a while.

no one i know really uses it anymore.
so let's update.

i found out who my REAL friends are..
ONCE AGAIN.
the most unexpected people talk shit
and it's all stupid things.
i mean seriously...

i don't hang out with these people anymore
yet, they go onto my blogspot account...
which i never told them to read or ever given them the url
and i find out they're reading up on my blogs
and talking shit about MY LIFE
as if it has ANYTHING to do with them.

"omg. so nicole went here today and she did this with blah blah.
OMG. grow the fuck up. get a life rather than reading up on MINE."

and that whole truth box shit. are you kidding me?!
these people actually waited for me to get one
and tried to think up shit to "OWN ME" HAHAHAHAA!
that is such a laugh. people are so immature.

that was back in like may or april.

other than that.. life has been alright.
something crazy happened recently.
i haven't told much people about it
and i'm not very open about it either.
it's a very sensitive topic
and bringing it up with anyone
and explaining makes my eyes start to well up. :(

i'm getting by.. no matter how shitty things have gotten since this crazy life changing thing has occured.

i've limited my "REAL FRIENDS" down to a small number, which i'm fine with.
everyone else is just an acquaintance... or nothing at all.
no significance in my life what-so-ever.

summer break has been alright. didn't really do much. feeling miserable here and there.
i'm glad i have the summer break to cope with this thing...
senior year starts in a few day. i have a bunch of homework to do.
i'm not all that excited.

i really wanna go shopping.

my life iz sucks at the moment.
the end.

yeah.
i was in the hospital yesterday.
well, that seems a bit.. intense.
i went to the doctor yesterday.
i swear the medical system in the united states is totally corrupt.
if i wanna see a god damn doctor, then i wanna see a god damn doctor
and not be prescribed medication over the phone.
whatever... these 3day antibiotics suck ass.
i've been sore and weak all day. my joints, my back.
and every so often i'll feel nauseous or have a headache.

other than that.. things seem to be alright
besides my dad totally pulling a lord chesterfield on me.
a little less than a year and a half until i'm out of highschool.
goodbye san diego? goodbye california?! oh man...

get over it.

i hate it when people hold grudges.
i mean... grow the fuck up.
SERIOUSLY.

especially when it was nothing big anyways.
and if you're gonna hold a grudge...
don't be fake with me and try to act like nothing's wrong.
i absolutely HATE fake people.

just thought i'd put that out.

grudges are for children.

Has anyone noticed that I don't have any friends, or very many for that fact.